They Ruined Me

It was 8th grade and I wanted to enjoy every last minute at the school Ive attended since kindergarten. I spent NINE whole years with the students there, we were basically a family. I had my group of friends, well I thought I did at least. All of a sudden I had only 3 friends. The other few girls decided they wanted to join the other “clique” which I guess is normal for middle school girls, I also noticed them slowly transitioning anyway, so I didn’t think too much about it. one day one of my best friends said not one word to me and didn’t sit with my and my other friend at lunch. that’s when I knew she was gone too. At this point it was just me and C. we sat alone at lunch, only talked to eachother, etc. we were totally isolated from everyone else in the class. the teachers noticed this change and tried their best to help, but we never got any answer out of them. I still to this day, 3 years later, don’t know what I did wrong. They completely ruined me; i have horrible trust issues and have literally no friends because i cant open up to them, due to being afraid of them leaving. i cant describe how lonely it gets. the sad part is, the one true friend that stuck with me, is slowly becoming distant because of these girls. i am now completely isolated from my friends and am incapable of making new ones. i hate to say it but…they’ve won.

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One Response to “They Ruined Me”

  1. tristian | November 4, 2013 at 5:15 pm #

    dude i know what you feel im all alone too.i have no friends, no family,and i have other things going on also.i wish i could say it got better but im honestly not sure of anything anymore.but i hope the best for you

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